I know I promised myself I was going to start blogging on my good days as well, but so far I've not had enough good days for long enough to have much to blog about. I'm just missing a huge piece of my heart right now. I'm so very proud of him and all he has done throughout his life. Some pictures of him from Afghanistan have started surfacing and I'm so thrilled to see them. I love to see pictures of him. It makes my heart smile and cry at the same time. I know, I make no sense at times, but that's okay, I never have.
I feel so disconnected right now and not sure how to reconnect right now. I'm so thankful I have such a patient and loving husband to be by my side right now, because I'm certain I would just die of a broken heart right now. I love the Vince Gill and Dolly Parton song "I will always love you" and right now listening to it on my iPod makes me think of my sweet baby boy. We loved a song when he was little called "A Groovy Kind of Love" and when he first heard it on the radio (he must have been 3 or 4) he said that's our song mommy. I haven't heard it in forever and if I did right now I would probably just fall to the floor crying and laughing. Crying because I miss my baby so much and laughing because we would sing it to the top of our lungs when it would come on. I love those memories. I love you Chadman. You will always be my baby boy with the curls and I will never stop missing you. Love, mommy
It makes perfect sense. Don't let anyone tell you any different.
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