Today marks what would have been Chad & Katie's 3 year wedding anniversary day. I'm sad I can't witness them celebrate, but my prayer is that Katie is able to draw some peace from this day and is finding a way to move forward and finding happiness. After all, I know Chad would never want her to have time stand still and not move forward and find happiness again. I know he would want her to be happy and have someone in her life to treat her like she deserves to be treated and for her to be a wife again and hopefully one day a mom.
As a mom, I go back to their day on September 18, 2009 at Bogle Garden and how beautiful they both were and how proud I was to watch my son and only child walk down the aisle. Then to come back to our house and have a fabulous reception (thanks to my amazing husband). I guess, for me, the highlight of all the events of that day had to be our mother/son dance. I had no clue what song Chad would choose for our dance. I know I had Googled several songs that would be appropriate, but I couldn't decide on which would be best. I had no clue he had already determined what our song would be. To all your parents out there, Chad's choice of song would prove to me that he was listening to me all these years when I thought he wasn't. :)
He chose "I hope you Dance" by Lee Ann Womack
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RV-Z1YwaOiw.
It was perfect! I had always said I wanted that song played at my funeral for him and all my nieces and nephews, because that was my hope for him and all of them. The fact that he chose that song that meant so much to me touched my heart in a way I will never forget. It truly made my day, so I thought... As we were dancing to this song he added the icing on the cake. He said "mom, don't be upset or cry, you aren't losing me". "You will never lose me"... :) I think I always knew that in my heart, but sometimes your head gets in the way and for the first time in his life I was having to share him with another woman and I wasn't sure what my role with him would be moving forward. He made sure I didn't have that fear anymore and those words couldn't have come at a more perfect time.
So to honor what would have been Chad and Katie's 3rd year wedding anniversary I went to the cemetery and laid flowers (mostly for Katie) and I spent a little quiet time there for both of us. She couldn't be there as she is still in CA and working so she couldn't make the trip, but I knew in my heart that she would be there if she could.
I know Chad would have wanted that and I know he is in a much better place than any of us right now. Knowing that doesn't make me miss him less, but it does give me a bit of peace since I can't change the circumstances.
Enjoy a few pictures from their magical day 3 years ago...
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| Mr & Mrs... |
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| 9-18-09 |
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| The happy couple |
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| LOL! He is hilarious! |
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| Their 1st Dance as husband & wife |
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| 9-18-09 |
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| Mother & Son Dance (perfect!) |
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| They could have told me I didn't have my shoes on... HA! |
This is the most beautiful thing I have read in awhile..... Ithink you are amazing and raised an amazing son... It showed through his entire life.... Katie would be honored I pray she gets a chance to read... You are amazing Tami I love you and I love Chad so very much....
ReplyDeleteI am apart of the 2/1 family and I briefly had to opportunity to meet chad. From what I understand he was awesome! I truely send my sincere condolence to your family. That was a very sad day for the whole Bn and he will never be forgotten. I wish the best for his wife katie, I couldn't even imagine what you have gone through stay strong and my prayers will be with you. God bless
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post.
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