Oh my sleepless night...

Well, I was so glad that finally after almost 3 months I could go to sleep and when I would wake up during the night I wasn't having all these visions running through my mind keeping me from continued rest at night, but that was short lived. :( Now it has begun again... I fall asleep and when I wake up (as I usually do every night), I can't fall back asleep or have a restful sleep for all the crazy visions in my head. Mostly to do with Chad, but then my mind wonders to all my bonus boys still over there and then I start worrying. I try to pray myself back to sleep and that doesn't seem to be helping much. Then someone from work suggested I play a song I like in my mind and let that put me back to sleep. Well, I tried that one and (if you know me will find this completely hilarious and know why) and when I couldn't remember all the words it drove me nuts and then I was wide awake (sigh). If you have suggestions that are different from these two I've already tried please feel free to share. BTW, those who know me really well know that I usually rock myself to sleep with my foot.... Yeah, all these years that has worked and not even that works (that one actually irritates me more now... Ha!). I know this will eventually get better, but right now my body is screaming (SLEEP/REST) and I'm having no luck at all with my tricks. I will say that I must have the most patient and understanding husband that ever lived, because he never complains about my resltless nights and my up and down out of the bed (and it's obvious I'm not the quietest person in the night or early mornings), but he never says anything (other than joking around of course). He certainly has put up with a lot over the last 3 months and 21 days and continues to do so in a loving way. I don't know what I ever did to get so lucky to have him in my life, but I sure am glad I did it. IF you are reading this Tebo, I love you and appreciate you more than I will ever have words to express appropriately. I'm very fortunate to have you in my life and my family is forutnate to have you in their lives as well. Just love how much you are loved each and every day even if it's not verbilized.