What I really want to do...

What I really want to do right now is bring my son home safely and put him in the arms of his wife and take his place in this ugly war. If I thought I could do that at all I would so be right there and he would so be right here safe and protected. However, I can't do that regardless of how badly that's what I want to do. All I can do is pray and wait. Pray and wait. That seems simple and easy enough, but honestly, it's one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. It's one thing for my kids or my husband or family to travel and be gone for long periods of time. It's not always easy to go through that or have your family scattered, but at least I know should I need to I could get to them one way or the other. Right now, I can't get to my baby boy. All I can do is trust the Lord and the Marine Corps and while that may seem easy, it's not. I never have been one to spend a lot of time wishing I could go back and have him little again or take back years that we have already gone through, but at this very moment I would love to be able to have him little again, barefoot, and little ringlet curls bouncing all over his head again for just a moment. Just to have a moment where I can pick him up in my arms and just hold him and protect him from anything or anyone that could harm him. I want those days back where he is dressed up in his football uniform with cowboy boots and a gun and holster set around his waist and him running and falling in slow motion. I want that back. I want him to be upset with the cat because she is on his pilpow (pillow). I want him lining all his little matchbox cars up in the living room in a row because he is watching Nascar on TV or singing his little heart out (Wanted by Allen Jackson) with his cowboy hat on with his aluminum foil microphone that BoBo made him. That's what I want today more than anything else. However, I can't have that back right now and I know my son needs me to be strong while he is fighting in this horrible war and that is what I will try my very best to do, but I will say this... These bad guys have never seen the likes of what a momma can do to them should they hurt my baby boy. They will only wish every military branch in the world was there instead of me if they hurt him so let them be warned!